Ever since my first episode, April has been a hard month for me. Depression seems to sweep me to my knees. Sometimes it hits for only 24 hours and sometimes for 2 weeks. I feel depression, not only in an emotional way, but physically as well. My eye lids get heavy in the sunlight and I feel as if I cannot rise from my bed as the weight of a human body seems to hang from my shoulders. When the sun starts to set, I wake up and seem to have endless energy into the night, which only perpetuates the darkness the following day. Currently, I am stable on my…